“You can’t throw me to the wolves. They come when I call “




The security is the highest level of state achievement. It could be national, international and individual and each of them is worth of our attention if we like to talk about feeling of safety and its correlation with universal freedom.  There is no perfect harmony between safety and freedom and it will never be. The great democracies never play on the both tickets because they know it is almost impossible to feed demons of security with the angels of freedom. At the end of the day, someone will be hurt and most of the time, the ordinary citizen pays the highest price, as the victim of failed security or betrayed freedom.

Nevertheless, there are people who go out of their comfort zones and try to get into the darkness, protecting others, sometimes because of their patriotism and sometimes because of their job.  The industry of security contractor jobs is on the rise in the last 20 years but what is even more surprising is that the private military industry is getting more and more contribution in the local and global conflicts. According to some studies, a security sector that is based on the pure interests and financial compensation is a multi-billion dollar project. This means that in the official military, the grunt soldier earns about $20,000 per year. On the other side, the skilled and capable security contractor, full combat professional, can reach between $150,000 and $250,000 per year for a similar job. Just to make it clear, this highly paid job is actually so profitable due to the high risk it brings for the holders and doers. According to some studies, those people are something between solders and security players with the developed feelings for a real danger and usually known as people without emotions: „Security contractors, commonly called mercenaries, perform security, intelligence, and combat across the globe for money. They can be found in every military hot spot – Afghanistan, Colombia, or Iraq. Private military companies like Blackwater Security, Military Professional Resources Inc., Sandline, Global Dynamics, or Triple Canopy hire these civilians to accompany and assist the military. Security contractors are more than just guns for hire. They are professional soldiers who fight for money, not for a nation or a cause. The majority of these mercenaries are experienced ex-military or ex-law enforcement professionals. The government and global corporations hire private military companies to come to war zones to help train troops, provide security, or perform special missions. Security contractors don’t ask questions, they just perform their duty, and get paid.”

This is not the claim that all private security contractors are just cold-bloody professional killers but they have very specific ethic code and they do not get into the source, questioning reasons or doubting the given orders. Those people execute their task and move to another, with no regret, conscience or repentance. 

It is not easy to get in this circle because the competition is big and the requirements are difficult. To be able to be accepted among mercenaries, the one must be the best of the best. That is the set of talents and skills, so typical for Navy Seals and SWAT but implemented on experienced civilians, ready to jump into the dangerous dark waters of parallel security. It is almost as if they live in the second dimension, so they deal with trash, which is too bad and too dangerous for regular forces.  The mercenaries must be enough fit to run in the jungle of South East Asia, hunt the terrorists in the Middle East or search for a drug boss somewhere in Panama.

They are on the war field, facing with the fire of death every single hour of their paid duty.  Majority of us condemn mercenaries due to the common belief that they have no hearts, but their eyes have seen invisible things and their souls have been sold to Devil, long before we have known that there is hell on the Earth.

The Dawnseeker I have talked to is a one of a kind. I have never believed that behind his love for nature and animals is the exciting, exotic life story. He was one of them but he is still one of us. The man. The human, the shadow on the wall.

When  did you start to work as private security contractor?

From 1988 – 2000 I was trained by Regular Forces and then I started with contract work.

Did you think about danger that this job brings to you? Have you been endangered during some of your mission?

Danger was every day. I wasn’t getting paid enough in my skill set working for the government and after I found out what the government was doing, I was against their beliefs. I wasn’t going to do wholesale killing for the pay they were offering.

What kind of people are mostly the mercenaries?

People come from all walks of training you don’t get along with all of them and they are not considered brothers, as the story says.

Is it possible for a mercenary to have a family life?

It is very hard because it is not a two way street. I can’t answer for others but for me… I needed no mentally interruptions  to complete the missions.You don’t need that  back noise in your brain with family problems or problems with women. I was always a loner so nothing affected me.  I would not be missed.

What was the scariest experience?

The scariest mission? I was the scariest thing an enemy never wanted to encounter with.  I am a sniper and had a high kill rate. Nothing bothered me. I was in Bosnia and I won’t lie, Milosevic in my eyes was right and not the government from the West. I was in other places, not only in Bosnia. I was in Afghanistan and Iraq, we were basically protecting the opium and oil and gold after Saddam was killed and then Osama. It is all smoke and mirrors. That’s why I left to work as a contractor in spite of fact that I was one of the top 10 in the world. I am anti government; the UN is a biggest joke ever. In spite all, the small army of trained  assassins could take out the elites.

How much the states use the service of private security contractors?

Many contracts come from the USA but it is the global. The media portrays the U.S. as the best and it is far away from it.

Do you regret for some of your missions?

My only regret was the government I served,  but in emotional way – no regrets.  I took the training and used the ammo and weapons. I felt nothing, no remorse or any sleepless night. It was a job and I did it well. And I would do it again, it is in my blood, war is in the DNA of my ancestry, I was the Horseman of Death.

You love wildlife and nature. Do you love people and what is your opinion about them?

I will stick to wildlife because the animals are innocent and don’t lie.

Are you happy now ?

I am very happy. I have my peace.

Tell me what you have learnt about life facing always with death?

I have always been Leary of my surroundings, still I am and I will always be. One day we will meet in Alaska or northern Russia, I would thrive there. I also do not believe in God, never have and I never walked out of my sniper hide. God is a character of false dreams.

Sometimes, the shadows on the wall speak out and we have to hear them. The return of the truth could be a biggest challenge ever.


  1. Sarah’s informative and relative article reminded me of Lyudmila Pavlichenko (1916-1974); The Soviet Union’s most effective and capable female sniper, during World War II. She was credited with 309 confirmed kills: she is regarded as the most successful female sniper in documented history, thus far.

    She was born in what was then The Russian Empire town of Bila Tserkva (now, in The Ukraine). At the age of 14, her family relocated to Kiev, and she decided to join the local rifle range (c. 1930); both Soviet boys and girls were encouraged to learn defensive skills, in order to prepare for military threats from Western Europe and North America.

    The rifle range was part of ‘OSOAVIAKhIM’ (ОСОАВИАХИМ, Союз обществ содействия обороне и авиационно-химическому строительству СССР – The Union of Societies of Assistance to Defence and Aviation-Chemical Construction of the USSR), which lasted from 1927 to 1951. Something similar to Occidental militia forces of civilians.

    Lyudmila Pavlichenko first worked in a munitions factory in Kiev, married at age 16 (one child), but divorced soon afterwards. Then, she decided to attend Kiev University; eventually, earning an MA in History.

    When the German military forces invaded The Soviet Union in June of 1941, Lyudmila Pavlichenko was 24-years old and in her final year at university. Immediately, she left the university to volunteer as an infantry soldier; being assigned to The Red Army’s 25th Rifle Division.

    At that time, most female Soviet volunteers were forced to become nurses/auxiliaries, but Lyudmila Pavlichenko refused, and demanded to be accepted into the infantry. She would become 1 of the eventual 2,000 plus female Soviet snipers; of whom only about 500 survived.

    In early-August of 1941, she made her fist official kill of a German soldier, as a sniper; although, officers were targeted, more so. She had not killed a fellow human being before, but she was fighting to protect her people and country from an invading force that intended to eradicate The Soviet Union, utterly.

    Lyudmila Pavlichenko was promoted to Senior Sergeant of Snipers when she achieved 100 confirmed kills, by September of 1941. Once the Romanians had joined the German offensive and Odessa The Crimean Peninsula became a strategic theatre of war, her unit was relocated there: an extremely dangerous situation.

    However, she kept herself alive by employing highly-skillful sniper tactics, and reached the rank of Lieutenant of Snipers in mid-1942. During the years of the war, she killed 309 German military personnel; including 36 enemy snipers.

    In June of 1942, she was seriously-wounded by mortar shards and was hospitalized. Due to her success as a sniper, the Soviet hierarchy decided to withdraw her from combat and employ her as a propaganda resource for morale of Soviet troops and the Soviet people overall.
    In the summer of 1942, Lyudmila Pavlichenko was sent to North America (The Soviet Union and The United States of America were allies, then), for publicity purposes of encouraging those fighting German aggression everywhere. She was the first Soviet citizen to be received by U.S-President Franklin D. Roosevelt in The White House.

    When she visited Britain in November of 1942, local workers donated £4,516 (c. US$50,000, now) for X-ray units for Soviet Army field hospitals. She was very moved by this gift from the British workers.

    By the end of the war, she had attained the rank of Major of Snipers, and had become an instructor at a prestigious Soviet military sniper school. She was awarded Hero of The Soviet Union.

    After the war, she completed her university studies/degree, and commenced a consultancy career in Soviet Navy history (i.e. research and pedagogy). She died at age 58 in 1974, and was given a state funeral in Moscow.


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About Sarahowlgirl1982

I am a master of Political Sciences, with special focus on Security Studies, Islamic Counter Terrorism and Weapons of Mass Destruction. I enjoy discovering and commenting things which are " in the air" but still not spoken.I also do like science writing and planing to move myself into the pure science journalism !